Dear Friends,
I’ve decided to write your letter outside today, it feels
like summer has finally arrived in the UK, I’m sitting in the garden with a
pint of water and eating dried apricots. Despite the beautiful weather I’m
feeling a little nervous, even though I knew I’d have to approach this subject
at some point, today I want to talk about my weight. Number 1 on my Grand to do
List, which you can find here, is to reach my goal weight. At the moment I
weigh 21stone 5lbs or 301lbs/136kg, which at 5’2 is nowhere close to what I
should weigh for my height, which is certainly not the greatest of numbers.
I remember weighing myself in Boots, seeing the number, my
stomach dropping and my cheeks burning red with embarrassment. I felt so
ashamed, suddenly aware of how my body moved, realising what I had done to my
small frame. I was numb from shock, wondering how I had let it get so far and
feeling so scared by the work ahead of me. I could write thousands of excuses
here but the reality is I did this to myself – no one else.
The fact of the matter is yes I am fat, that isn’t going to
change overnight, not matter how hard I wish it to be different. It’s going to
take a lot of: hard work, time and patience. It would be a lie to say I’m not
daunted by that, because of course I am, but I’m ready to not be overweight
anymore.
For now,
Love from
Mavis xP.S Follow me on Instagram here or Twitter here
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